Long time, no… blogging? It’s been a while. It feels like a lot longer than its actually been. Maybe no one noticed, maybe some did, but I haven’t posted or been on Twitter in about a month. I originally had this plan to write a post about my six month blogging anniversary but then that passed, and I felt like I had to say something about where I’ve been. I look at my blog as this big journal and I want to be able to look back one day and remember what was going on instead of trying to remember where I was for a whole month.
So, my six months of blogging post has turned into a chapter of my “Dear Diary” series. I guess you would call it a series? Its a post that I do every once in a while to document my latest thoughts, ideas, and basically a little life catch up.
And now, we’re here. At first I was intimidated by all the words I wanted to put together into one post but currently I’m sitting down watching reruns of Grey’s Anatomy, eating some ice-cream, and its all just coming to me. So first off, Hi! Happy April. Wow. April already?! We are one month closer to summer and I definitely am counting down the days. This brings me to my first reason I’ve been gone and that is that school has been a struggle this semester. This is probably my most difficult semester of college yet. My teachers are tough, the work is tough, and even though I’m putting all my time and energy into my school work, I’m still having a hard time. Over the last month, I felt guilty any time I wasn’t studying since I knew I needed all the time I could get. So, I didn’t even realize I was ignoring my blog until I realized that I was devoting every minute of my free time to my classes. After about three weeks, I was understanding my classes a little better and decided I wanted to get back to blogging. Then, I got sick. Colds are my worst enemy this year and I had zero energy to do anything during them.
After I started feeling better, (which leads up to last week) my dog started getting really sick. We tried to get her better but long story short, she only got worse. Unforntually, she passed away last week. My family and I are so devastated. I knew it would be hard to lose my first ever pet, but I never knew it would be this hard. She was fifteen years old and had outlived her lifespan by an entire year. She was so, so loved and will forever be missed. She was my absolute best friend and I literally grew up with her. I’ve had her since I was five years old and now, the world just feels a little more empty without her. My house feels more empty. I know that she’s in a good place and that she’s with all my other loved ones that left this world a little too soon. I want her to know that she was the best dog we could have ever asked for and that we love her so much.
Blogging has always been kind of therapeutic for me. So when this all happened last week, all I could think about was writing. Writing helps me think through my thoughts. I think back over the last six months and really my entire life, and I realize that anytime I’m going through something hard, I go back to writing. Its why I started blogging in the first place. Six months ago, I had just left a job that I loved more than anything, I had grown apart from some friends, and felt like life was changing much more quickly than I would like. Blogging about things I found interesting, or things that I wanted to do, or just typing a page of my random thoughts (kind of like I am right now), was my escape from the world. It’s like a mini vacation to (my kind of) paradise.
So where does my blog go from here? Where will it be in another six months? I’m not entirely too sure. In January I made it my resolution to dedicate this year to finding my personal “style”. When it comes to my blog, that style changes every week. But whether it be my writing, my layout, or what I actually write about, I know that I’ll find exactly what works for me.
And so, if you’ve ever read my blog, have shown me any kind of support, or have just stumbled upon it now, thank you. Blogging has been one of my biggest blessings. Six months down, and hopefully so much more to go. I want to always be blogging. I KNOW that I’ll always be blogging. I’m so happy to be a part of this wonderful blogging community and am so glad to be back.