As my classes end and I am finishing up the rest of my finals, I can’t even believe I will be going into my senior year of college this September. This post and my thoughts are probably four months too early and this will probably all over the place…but, I just have so many thoughts right now and I feel so, so excited.
This is going to sound crazy, but I really just can’t wait for this summer to come and go already. I’m impatient and just want to keep going and going because the finish line is so close.
I wanted to make this post because I would love to look back a year from now, and either laugh at myself for being so naive, or see if I feel the exact same way that I do now. I’ve never been the type of person that enjoyed school. Instead, I’ve always loved to work. I get such a feeling of accomplishment whenever I go to work, which is something I’ve never gotten out of school. I also feel like I had all of these expectations of what college would be like. I imagined that I would be doing what I loved, and that I would get this glimpse into the real world, when in reality, it has been nothing like that for me.
A lot of my friends who have gone away to school have had the time of their lives. They feel the complete opposite about graduating school than I do. Most of them are scared and nervous about the future, which, I get. Its probably how I’ll feel eventually. But for some reason, all I feel right now is excited. I can’t wait to be able to put all of my time and energy into a career and work hard to get where I want. I can’t wait to start living in this real world, that I see so many of the people that I look up to, living. To anyone older than me reading this, I probably sound so naive to you (I’ve already gotten told that by a lot of the adults in my life). Its just that I really like to look on the positive side to things and I like to be excited about the future because no matter whether we want it or not, its coming.
A lot of people have asked me what my plans are for after school and I sound so irresponsible by saying that I really have no idea. I mean, I still do have an entire year left. And instead of an idea I have hopes and I have dreams of things that I would like to do after school. I have this scenario in my head where I get this great job and I get to be in the city and do all these great things, but as the saying goes “When you make plans, God laughs”. That quote has proven to be so, so true for me and I am so grateful that it has because Gods plans have always ended up being better than the ones I originally had.
I’ve had things happen the past three years that I would have never thought would happen. Things that made me upset, and angry, but if it weren’t for those things, I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I wouldn’t have the values that I have nor the mindset. I wouldn’t be blogging, I wouldn’t be getting the degree that I’m getting, I wouldn’t be inspired by all this positivity.
Okay Colleen, this post is officially all over the place.
I’m saying all of this because if the next year is anything like the past three have been, then there will definitely be times where I feel overwhelmed, unmotivated, and completely, so completely lost. So this is the mindset I want to take with me into my senior year of college. To know that things have a way of working themselves out and that time moves quick so I shouldn’t worry for too long. My time will come. God has a plan.
So to future Colleen who’s probably reading this and needs the reassurance, here it is. My thoughts going into my senior year of college are filled of nothing less than high hopes. Hopes that I will keep evolving, keep learning, and keep seeing the light in every situation. I hope I never let my self stop dreaming. I’m sure I will be wherever I am meant to be this time next year and I am so excited to see where that is.
P.S. Enjoy all these pictures that I took while on a walk last week and where I was thinking about writing this post. I’ve had finals and have taken zero pictures since then!