One year ago, I decided to take my very new, barely worked on blog, and go self-hosted with it. I purchased a theme and decided on a domain name. Within twenty four hours I had my own website, I repeat, my own website, up and running (I had a few posts before that, but I consider this day to be my blogging “anniversary”). I sat in my bed the entire day creating my layout, and working on multiple posts to get up as soon as possible. I was so proud of this little space that I had created for myself.
This time last year, I was starting a new job (which was very scary) and going back to school (always scary, no matter how used to it I am). Change and I have never been best friends, and so my blog became my little safe space. I thought about it while driving to work and school, during work and school, when I went to bed at night, and it was always the first thing I thought about in the morning. It was what kept me calm during all of the new.
For the past few days I’ve been trying to figure out what it is that makes me love blogging so much. Trying to get down to the exact reason why I decided to start one. I would love to say that I came up with this super insightful and meaningful answer but thats not the case. I think I started blogging because it was something that just seemed fun. It was a way to keep my mind off of missing my old job and hating school. In a way, it just became so therapeutic for me. I had this place where I got to be creative and talk about things I was actually interested in.
I’ve always been jealous of the people who figured out what their passion was early in life. I sat back and watched people discover their love for sports, music, art, literally everything under the sun, and I used to sit back and think, “Okay, maybe I’m just meant to not be passionate about anything”. I mean, it did take me two and a half years to claim a major in college. But after starting this blog, I felt like I had started to find it.
Fast forward through the year and you’ll find some very badly written posts (some of which has since been deleted. Yup, too embarrassing), some dramatic “month’s in reviews”, about three hundred theme changes/photo editing styles, and a whole lot more. I promise you I will be probably do all of these things throughout this next year as well. The perfectionist part of me is just too strong and I’m always looking for a way to improve. But I went back to one of my first posts, Turning Twenty and Other Life Things, and I just think its so cool to look back and reflect. To relive how I was feeling while writing that post. For that, I’m incredibly grateful for blogging.
So, its only been a year but that’s still an accomplishment in my book. I don’t think there is any stopping now. I’m in this blogging thing for the long run. Whether it takes me nowhere or takes me everywhere, its something I think I’ll always want to do. I have so much more to learn and I cant wait to see where I am this time next year. And although this whole post may have sounded a bit dramatic (are we surprised?), it sums up perfectly how much this one year of blogging has meant to me. To anyone who has shown me any kind of support over the past year, thank you so much. I’m so incredibly grateful.
(Also, if you’re wondering if this confetti got everywhere, it did. Big thank you to my sister for helping me clean it all up!)